Hell load of BS

I dont know why but tonight was the night that i suddenly want to write something...

Its been a long time since i wrote something, blogging wasn't as popular as it use to be, and tweeting is starting to slide too...

I'm still working in that small little firm. Its cool, my colleagues are nice, and the work and environment isn't that bad either. I'll probably stick around until... may be when I graduate from my course. I'm going to start studying soon, I'm getting a degree in management. Its a very general course, hence the 'Jack of All Trades, Master of None' keeps popping up in my head. I know its too general, but I really don't know what I am going to do when I graduate. I have no goals, no dreams, no jobs that I fancy... I don't really know what I like, everyone always ask what do you like to do, but I have NO IDEA what i want to do. Is it really that bad? Not to have dreams? No Goals? No Future? I just live my life one day at a time...

For these past couple of months, I have been trying to find out what I want to do, and who I am. Some of you will know what I mean. Trying to figure out what I want to do, for a job, and in my life. What I truly am, in my life. I have no idea too. I have no one to guide me, no one to teach me, and no one to talk to. Of course, I'm not that pessimistic. At least not yet anyway.

So I said that I have been working, waiting for my course to start. Am a little nervous, don't really know if I can cope with it. And don't really know if I can make any friends there.

Oh did I mention that I just celebrated my birthday not long ago? No I really did celebrate my birthday. My secondary school friends, who I have known for almost ten years, some of them couldn't make it. And for those who came, no one bother to bring a camera along, or sing a birthday song for me. Its not that I don't appreciate them, its just that I'm a little sad that not all my friends can make it, and I have to bring my own camera to take pictures. And even the pictures are very few. Did anyone notice that NO ONE commented on the pictures I took for my birthday? Only one of my colleagues did, the rest just couldn't bother or think that it's not worth commenting. Even my one of my friends who is currently studying overseas, care more about his blunder and rejections, than saying happy birthday to me. He wants me to listen to his incident and didn't even bother to ask if I'm interested or not. Or at least he could wish me first, before blabbering away on the window screen. I'm mostly ALWAYS present in all of their birthday celebrations, and make an effort to buy them presents, but me?

But i do appreciate the present that they bought me, and will still bring my camera to their birthday celebrations. I will still make an effort to celebrate all of their birthdays, and make them happy, as long as I'm still alive, and they are still my friends.

I know some of you who read this will ask me to grow up, get a life, stop whining, but hey, this is my blog, I get to write what I want to say and if you are not happy, create your own blog and flame me, I don't care ;p